Now that Adam is no longer living at Ron’s, he has either been house sitting or staying with friends he knows at SoulFood Books. We filmed this interview near a small river that runs behind SoulFood Books where Adam has been spending time meditating. It’s a place that gives him a relative sense of peace.
In the interview Adam talks about a time while he was in Maui where he first had the experience of being in a state of fearless love. He said it felt almost like he was ‘hypnotized’, however the feeling would come and go. He says that since he has come back to where he grew up he has had a much harder time getting into that state of ‘fearless love’.
Adam has been home from Hawaii now for over 4 months and is working daily to address his fears—fear of failure, fear of inadequacy and fear of judgment, especially judgment coming from his family. Despite his desire to spend time with his mother, who is battling cancer, his personal fears combined with unresolved family issues are proving to be overwhelming.
It’s frustrating for me to watch Adam struggle as he tries to confront and conquer his fears on his own. I find myself wishing that someone, like a mentor, would step forward and help him navigate this difficult time—someone who has had to confront similar issues and has successfully done so.
Since pharmaceuticals have not work for Adam, we started interviewing transpersonal psychologists and psychiatrists, who take a different approach, and recognize the importance of integrating spirituality into mental health. I look forward to sharing their insights with you in upcoming posts.